Revisiting the Blog/ Where is God in College?

This is my first voluntary blogging experience. I was required to keep a blog for my Rhetoric classes last year at SMU, but I finally decided to use it for therapeutic purposes instead. Also, I became somewhat inspired at reading the postings of a new friend of mine. So - here we go. Recently, a lot has been on my mind concerning God and his place in the life of a college student. This year, I must confess, I have been struggling with my faith constantly. I see people all around me who don't really care about God, or if they do, don't show it. They seem to be living perfectly happy, fulfilled lives, and I wonder... I'm a Christian, and I still don't seem 1/10th as happy as they are. Why? Well, the answer, has been presented to me recently as clear as day. God's side of the bargain only works if we do one simple thing: Be OBEDIENT. Now, this has been a major pitfall for me, because I am a) a control freak, and b) a know-it-all. Obedience has never been at the top of my expansive priority list, because I am usually consumed with being obedient to my own goals and wishes completely independent of others. This is bad. I recently have realized that I NEED people. I NEED God. God is not some "mean kid on an ant hill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant" (courtesy of the movie "Bruce Almighty")... and I digress... This is not the purpose of God in our lives. He does not serve to be a harsh and ruling master that forces us to submit to impractical rules in order to receive his favor. God gives us rules, guidelines, and morals so that we can be blessed. Well now, isn't that a concept... God loves us in spite of who we are... There is an AMAZING song that I have been listening to, and it's by Chris Tomlin... It's called "Indescribable"... The one line that always gets me goes something like this, "incomparable, Unchangeable, you see the depths of my heart and you love me the same...". This is so true. All God requires of us is that we be obedient. Even if we have messed up, and doubted him. He still loves us just the same... That's it.